Tidbits of excitement

Yesterday in the mail (at OUR house) Kevin's fingerprint clearances!! Wa-Hoo! At least they came to the right place ;) So, I will go get it copied, send the original to the home study social worker and send the copy to our adoption agency. Yay, another small thing accomplished.

Also, we got a letter from the agency Saturday saying that they now also provide online profiles for FREEEE on their website. They have a waiting families link that potential birth moms can click on to see pictures and information of hopeful adoptive parents. I personally think that is the way to go. I know it is more likely a teen will turn to the Internet when she is questioning her options before she will pick up the phone and call an agency. I wrote up everything our agency wanted for the online profile and emailed it along with pictures Wednesday. I am still waiting to hear if they find it all acceptable or not. I am very excited that our agency is doing this.

Maybe I'll just get a puppy..........

In other news, I called our social worker that is doing our home study today. I still had not received my FBI fingerprint clearances, it dawned on me that perhaps they were sent to her, rather than to me and sure enough that is exactly what happened! Everyone is happy that they are back. They should have been sent to me but I don't care about incidentals right now. Just glad we have another small thing accomplished.

Down

I warned you it could come, and I can feel it is almost here. I am fighting against it, but getting really tired and not sure how much longer I can hang on. I'm gonna lose it. I don't know if its because my birthday is coming up soon or that now that there is no school, gymnastics, MOPS and things like that that I just have more free time to dwell on things or what it is, but I want to scream, cry, kick yell and ask WHY GOD WHY and beg him to hurry up, I can't do it anymore, I can't wait any longer. Clearly God's timing can't be right, he has no idea what he is doing. I want my child and I want him/her NOW.
Notice I said I want to, not that I am going to. I know better. I know he does know what he is doing, I know that he brought us to this agency, I know he knows the child he has for us already. I may not like it at the moment and that even though I may lose it soon, he'll be there to pick me up.